Went out visiting the community made a few contactz. Got a couple of replies. Blu mentioned that she wondered where I had gone. Meaning I guess she thinks I was at MySpaceZtation 4 a while?? Actually I bruised my spine and couldn't walk or sit for any long periods of time. Then I started having weird heart palpatationz. 2005 was a very sick year for me. I zeemed to be constantly fighting off ailments. I'm juzt ztarting to feel somewhat like myzelves again!
Spoke to Tim lazt Night. Told him about how I made a reply to some young lady(P. Loma) from MySpace Ztation and wasn't quite sure of the Locations link laws so I juzt said "Google me" and the very next day the Prez is supenaing google for it'z search engine recordz. Tim juzt laughed and said I was paranoid. But it really brings into question in my mind the controversy of being spied on. I have nothing to hide. I'm not perfect but I have gained the knowledge of salvation therefore it'z recieved. The Gov is getting spooky if U azk Me?
Sometimes I wonder what people think of me. I know I can be a bit foolish with my Zaney Humor. It's lonely being Jim Carey and Robin Williams rolled up in a dirt poor circumstance. Humbug Ok so I'm not dirt poor, just comfortably numb. So many talented EGO's with touchy nerves. Oh well I method...
Met a really outstanding and fantastic author over at MySpace Ztation - Ex Animo. I will study him and fashion my skills in that likeness if I'm able. Also got some new recording Ideas from Mikey Dies for my acoustical muse. Been thinking about things to write but nothing has surfaced yet. But I am getting inspired. Jilly wrote a very interesting article today. Right now I'm just tired of stareing at my screen.
Sometimes I wonder what the big deal is. Why is it that sometimes when I write something it comes back to bite? Is the written word sharper than the tongue? I can be attacked verbally or by written mail but when I try to defend myself it, suddenly becomes a war. And I'm on the losing end. Nothing I say can seem to turn it back in my favor, even if I try to express the logic of my actions. On top of that most things I write are in jest. And like this entry there is a path that led up to it. I don't expect it to be understood but it was fun to read & write about it. Am I that misunderstood? Hardly anyone reads my crap anyways. When I try to express myself and go into detail about some issue no one listens. But when I write something with a controversial sting; oh look out. I guess my skin must become even thicker... I just really hate manipulative threats and jabbing innuendos that accuse me of being that which I detest. I used some profanity - I'm not vulger! So many prudish people that call themselves better than thou in the name of their Religion. They don't even know God. Even so; hear in this post I ask for forgiveness in what I did not know That Witch- I've done. And for the anger that swelled up inside me about it all. I try not to take thingz so zeriouzly to begin with! However I will not crumble and fall down to kiss the feet of my accusor like some sap. I stand strong behind my feelings and won't turn and run in retreat. I would rather be beheaded! Besides with the knowledge of the truth that's held within me, I know that this body may pass but I am now eternal...
Well I made a small appearance at the Nelsonic Inn. Someone responded but I'll have to check out his site closer. A piano player/artist/teacher from Chicago. He seemed pretty cool offering me a drink and all.
The cat got sick this morning. Poor fella hurling and gagging. Janice had the ranch bug sprayed and I think it got to him. I'm feeling a bit woosey myself.
Talked to Andy last week on the cell as he drove up the Oregon coast to his home. I guess he's got the place on the market. he said he might be moving to Costa Rica. He's going down soon to check the place out.
Spoke to Tim on the phone last night and he's finally on the net surfing about a bit, finding some of his interest. He said he went to my site. And I asked what he thought? He said it seemed pretty political. I said what you mean. he said-You know with the picture of George Bush and the notes about his politcal failures. I said...HUH? I don't have a pic of Bush here! He called later and said that he could have swore he was on PlanetMezmer when he saw and read about it. ...I just said -"Welcome to Mezmer Bro." He gave me a friends web page Bass player Bill Moiser to review. I have to go back there for a visit soon.
Well the mornings gone it's already noon. Slight overcast is decieving my mind & body. I haven't even had a cup of Joe- gotta go...Bye