Is anybody else feeling this way?
I don't mean to lose my cool or become impatient because I know it serves no good purpose, but I have a problem.
And before I let loose here, I ask please don't give me any advice on how to fix it. Right now I'm sure it would just make me feel worse and more helpless. I just want to know if anyone is feeling this same way.

I have been watching tv and playing video games for probably 2 months now as GOD has me in a waiting period. The thing I'm waiting for? The same thing we're all waiting for, The Rapture. I am indulged in these electronics for hours at a time, sometimes all day. I am in Al. right now helping my grandparents fix a trailer up to live in because someone burnt down their home. We usually pray and see if we feel like the Lord wants us to go work on it that day. We get confirmation almost every time.

These shows that I watch and games that I play aren't considered "healthy" for the spirit. The reason I indulge? I can't take this world and the evil in it unless I'm watching something that's humorous and fake. I also need to pass time and have my mind occupied with something or else I'm going to lose it! If I haven't already.

I don't have a problem with waiting and being patient. The only thing I'm concerned and worried about is the fact that every day I'm made to live on this earth is another day I could fall off the path. And I don't feel like I'm walking as straight as I used to. I can't fight these problems that isn't an option. I have no strength left. It has been depleting for about a year now and now i feel it's almost gone. But, maybe that's an indicator of the nearness of it all.

I posted up a dream that I had about 2 or 3 weeks ago and in the dream, I was raptured and was singing to the Lord saying "I'm sorry I ever doubted you!" over and over again.

Probably just as well that you're not asking for advice, because I have none to give--at least, nothing that I know will help. But I want you to know that I, too, am in a waiting period, a holding pattern. I guess God has us all in that holding pattern at the moment because time is running out, and our job is all but done. And like you, I feel the need of a diversion to keep me occupied while I wait. Since I'm unemployed, I've got lots of time on my hands and I can't spend every spare minute of it Bible-reading and praying, so I've been occupying myself by messing with stuff that I write on the computer (usually on my Microsoft Word), watching DVDs or videos I own (I've been watching one particular set of DVDs a lot as of late), etc. (Want to guess which DVD set I'm watching a lot of, as of this time? The old children's TV series, "H.R. Pufnstuf"--yes, I'm reliving my childhood! That show was on when I was 8 years old, and I have fond memories of it. What can I say, though? I need a diversion, too, while I wait, and I find it preferable to watching all the evil in the world on the news, etc. Without this escape, the stress would probably really wear me down.)

You're not the only one who's running out of strength, either, Scott--so many of us, now, are in the same boat. And maybe that's an indication as to how close the Rapture is, too [crosses fingers]. Maybe our need for God's strength is just about over--I hope! Please, God, let that be the case--I pray it's the case!

I'm the last one to be in a position to claim to speak for the Lord--there are others on this forum who are more in tune with God than I am, alas, and thus better qualified for that. But this is my feeling, and I pray it's from the Lord. I feel that time has just about run out, that our job is just about done, and that God has us in this waiting period, or holding pattern, for that very reason. He still wants us to occupy until He comes, of course, but any time now, it'll be time for the 144,000 Jewish evangelists and the two witnesses to take over. Does anyone else reading this thread have that same sense, BTW, or is it just me?

Here's a virtual hug, BTW, Scott: I hope I've been able to help at least somewhat!


Kathy G.

Brother Scott, You are NOT alone.It is a DAILY struggle at my end.I am scarred not only physically M.E a Hepatitis B Vaccine reaction 3 years October 1.I feel like I have been spiritually abused by what I lived with with my younger brother--(Though I have forgiven him....swearing and it is like I have those words stuck in my head and I have to ask the LORD daily to guard my mouth)ANYONE who reads this PRAY for me.Dealing with M.E IS a struggle,some ppl are REALLY BAD but you fluctuate daily.

I JUST WANT TO GO HOME,MY REALLY HOME...O COME QUICKLY LORD JESUS!!

I try and do housework and occupy as Jesus said,but as you said,I am in a WAITING period.I know that you have to occupy in waiting too.Some days I am NOT able with much physically,from when I get up in the morning I can usually tell what kind of a day it will be....meaning what I may try and accomplish in that given day.

Keep strong brother and Keep your eyes on Jesus!! I sometimes quite often feel strength fleeting,but it is in OUR weakness that HE truly manifest Himself and shows us JUST how STRONG He TRULY is.

Before I read your post, I was thinking "Lord I feel like I'm on a yoyo"; I had just read that PLO isn't going to ask for statehood this month afterall.

I thought He said to me, You are not on a yoyo up and down, things are going along the plan. I'm in control"

Meaning that the Rapture is still going to happen on schedule. Abba's change of mind is not going to delay it. Thank the Lord for that!

WOW. I thought I was the only one feeling this way! I've been feeling like I'm so tired I'm ready to faint since Dec 2009. Its such a drag not knowing exactly when we're leaving but not making preparations to stay here on earth. Sometimes I get so mad at God because I feel so heavy and depressed MOST of the time and ask Him over and over again for years to restore me to where I once was. But He just doesn't answer that prayer. He'll answer every other prayer of mine except that one prayer. I barely wake up in the morning to go to work. As soon as I get done helping my brother get on his feet to be able to take care of his son, I'm getting rid of my apartment and living in my car. I can't handle this world no more! Everyday for the past 2 years I've been warning my coworkers, family, friends, anybody I can find about the coming of the Lord and sooooo few people heed it. It wearies me to no end. I see the dullness of hearing and understanding in 99% of people I interact with, including fellow christians. I sit in the dark most days trying to relax my mind from the depression and heaviness I feel on a continual basis. I remember the days when I first believed, that God was there where I could feel Him all day everyday. Now, I feel Him maybe once or twice a month. That's the only joy I get in my whole life is when He is near. Jesus is everything to me...because He saved me from the wrech that I am. So I hold to His promise that He will finish the work He started in me. Even though my own strength fail me, He will never fail me! Never!!! I've heard His voice to me and His kindness is sweeter than life. He is my joy, my hope, my song in the midnight hour. We are watchers and to this task we have been called. Stand in this evil day and having done all...stand! We are standing because our hope is in Jesus Christ and nothing else. Look up and lift up your heads, our redemption draws near!

Maranatha

Thanks, guys.
I guess I'm just in a criticizing phase towards myself. It's just way too important to ignore even the minor problems that I deal with. For example: 1 Corinthians 10:23 - "All things are lawful for me, but all things are not expedient."
To me watching these tv shows may be ok. As long as they do not overcome me and do not lessen the Lord being involved in me. But to me, I haven't been told by God to stop watching them. And given that He is what matters most in my life, I can give these shows up at any time. It may cause me to go insane from doing nothing all day, but I could do it.

I was just looking at another post that was attempting to describe the new earth and the new Jerusalem and I had to stop reading it. I can't take anymore revelation about heaven or our new life without experiencing it when it's time. It makes me sick.....homesick.

Another thing too. You know the letters from Susan and Sabrina on Endtimesprophecy.com? I sometimes read those. And I honestly don't know what to think. Sometimes they are spot on and I know it's God cause I recognize it. But then other times it really discourages me because I compare myself to what is described in these letters and wonder if I was really meant to inherit God's kingdom, if I was built correctly for it. Maybe I lack some certain drive or capability of staying in line or staying in touch with God. Anyone else get this sometimes while reading their letters?

Scott, I do not read those letters from Susan and Sabrina for the very reason you stated- the confusion that comes from all the conditions laid out that one must meet in order to be (A.)saved, and (B)raptured.

God's love and His promise of salvation - FULL SALVATION - which includes the redemption of our physical bodies into an incorruptible one (rapture) - is not conditional on anything except your accepting Jesus as Savior. When you ask Jesus to forgive and cleanse you, come into your heart and be your Savior and Lord - IT IS FINISHED! Jesus does the clean-up and makes us holy (separated) and righteous by His blood shed on the cross.

No matter how good some things may sound that a fellow christian writes, unless it lines up completely with the word of God disregard it and move on. We are either led by the Holy Spirit or by our own fleshly spirit. Some people can get into the flesh and write out of their own ideas or prejudices. Each of us is charged by the word to discern, to try the spirits to see if they are of God and not to accept everything that we hear or see. That is how we stay focused on Jesus. Just the fact that these letters cause confusion and depression is a clue that there is a problem. They are both probably very sweet and well meaning but the writing is a little off in my opinion so I don't read them at all. Hope that helps.

Scott,
I can understand where your coming from brother. Things in this world are just getting worse by the day, but at the same time, we have seen so many signs lately that point to a very soon coming rapture. I would only suggest that you stay in prayer and read the scriptures. Jesus is going to take us home soon. I believe it is very, very soon. God bless you Scott!

Kevin

Scott,

I DO NOT read those letters that Susan & Sabrina write and trust me I HAVE come across them on Facebook.Some of my friends post them.....Something within me was NOT right in regards to those letters.I mean ""WHY???"" would the LORD PICK OUT ONLY 2 ppl to write things like this.The enemy uses things like this to speak lies to us,that we won't make the Rapture,etc....I heard OVER a year ago that these letters DON'T line up Scriptually and they used these 2 ppl's names on the air on the radio.Plus,something within me STOPPED me from reading or even thinking about those letters.It was ONLY when you mentioned it,that I thought I would write this post.

I am NOT going into who is a follower of Jesus or who isn't,that isn't for me to say.Though,the LORD did say that by their fruits you would know them.

Jesus,is My FIRST LOVE and I ONLY want JESUS!!!

Kevin and Texas Sue have both made some excellent points. I have not read Susan or Sabrina's posts, and after what I've read of them on this thread, it's clear that I have not missed anything. If I never read anything of theirs, I will not regret anything. If Jesus lives in your heart, Scott, then you have met the only requirement for being Raptured--you are saved! And hallelujah for that!!

Amen. Thanks guys. I really can't wait to be done with this earth. We may not have to wait long, I pray...... see you all there. Love U all.

The sooner, the better, as far as I'm concerned!

Soon!

Scott,

We all can relate in some way or another to the way you are feeling. I'm so tired at times which comes from living with chronic pain and medication. As I watch much of the world and it's destructive, ungodly teachings and living, it makes me yearn that much more for my Heavenly home with Jesus! I feel like an outsider, that I just don't belong here anymore. I've been watching for decades, knowing that Jesus promised to come and take us home to where He is, because He said so Himself!

John 14 2In my Father's house are many mansions: if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. 3And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again, and receive you unto myself; that where I am, there ye may be also.

This is what keeps me going is knowing that Jesus never said it would be easy to follow Him, but He did say it would be worth it and He said he would return and take us there.

Having said that, all I can do is obey what He asked all of us to do "occupy", until He returns for His Bride/Church. Pray, as scripture states to be "accounted worthy to escape all that's coming upon the earth"! Through Christ, we are made worthy, and by praying this prayer, it assures us that we are; because Jesus paid the price for our sins. We need re assurance, so when we pray that prayer, we are comforted by God's Holy Spirit whom dwells within, and grants us the Lord's peace and confirmation of such. The Lord knew that there would be some whom would doubt, therefore, there's nothing like prayer, to set the record straight, knowing that God has our best interest at heart.

I don't read Susan's/Sabrina's posts! I read a few in the beginning, and much of it did not agree with scripture, God's Holy and inspred Word, or my spirit within, therefore, I stopped reading a long time ago, and have no interest in them. I'm very glad that all here have had used their God given discernment regarding their messages, and have abstained from posting them here, and I thank you all.

I'm praying that we are finally going home, with Jesus via the Rapture! I feel like I can't give up my watch, or keeping this site up and running for His Honor & Glory. Jesus didn't give up on me, and died for me, and my sins, such a horrific death. I count my suffering compared to the Lord's as barely worth mentioning, for I can't imagine the excruciating pain Jesus endured for all of us. The least we can do, is endure and keep the faith, knowing, Jesus will keep His word, and is coming very soon to take us to where He is...All the signs are pointing to His soon return for His Bride!

Look up our redemption draws near!

Maranatha!

Valerie

Scott, I too feel that way as well.

My unsaved loved ones are also getting that numb-but deaf feeling of listening to me raving (I hope it's OK for me to do that...) about our soon departure. For they continue scoffin at me.

Also, do you folks also feel like we're not alone--angelwise/HSwise? I'm asking, b/c I feel that they are sent to be with us...as our time of departure grows ever nearer. They could very well be our excorts, for when Jesus does return in the clouds to gather us to Him. For it won't be too long now.



Maranatha!
Tammy

I had listened to a message by someone the other day.. and i realized there are alot of people out there who 'speak for God'... but their messages don't lead me into the 'fear of God' as maybe they would mask them...
they lead me into FEAR OF FAILURE. That's TOTALLY different.
These words and messages get my eyes off of Jesus and onto me and makes me feel like i just want to crawl into a hole and die - cause Ill never measure up.
It isn't about what we've done, it's about what He's done. And when you love Him you will want His Spirit to refine you. And that refining is a process.
Just because we don't have everything perfect in our life - Jesus knows us and our heart!! He knows if you are open to His Spirit or if you are resistant to it. And I personally think that's what it comes down to... Not how perfect we are, but how willing we are for Him to refine us.