Kind of funny now, sitting here in my Moms house. Everything sure has changed. After all the horrible beatings and terrible childhood, I just love her. She’s all better now; Jesus has done a powerful thing to get us, both her and I, to this day. Yes He has.

I'm a retired tattoo artist. One of my personal tattoos is the skeleton of the bones on my left hand from my wrist to the tips of my fingers, the phalanges. I guess that’s the most painful tattoo I have ever gotten. And plenty of them I have at that. They all have special meaning, the bones on my hand; they mean I'm going to be a tattoo artist for the rest of my life. I was looking up into the bright lights of my studio one day and thought “****......those lights are so bright, I can almost see the bones in my hand", that’s how I came up with the idea. I figured if I ever got a tattoo like that, I’d have to be a tattoo artist for the rest of my life. I had "White Pride" down the back of my triceps. This was from my "white supremacist" days. Got the "white" part covered up now, and most of the tattoos that were satanic are covered, or eventually will be, it’s taken a while.

I started tattooing in prison, I’ve been there six times. Never for any sex crimes. No sex crimes. That’s a bragging right. I’m a biker too, retired Lost Race M/C, out of Wisconsin. All part of the "code", no bull**** against women or children, no snitching, keep it real. Always have to keep it real, right? Almost got to brag about no violent crimes, but I had an armed robbery in Duluth, MN, and I was part of a driveby way back in the old days for me, in Tacoma, WA. Other than that I stayed out of the violent trouble.

Funny how life is, just like being at mamas right now. She gave me up for adoption when I was thirteen, my brother too. My sister had to stay home and slave it out with the new kids, our half brothers and sister from her new husband. Mom used to beat us really bad. We got whooped in ways that'd make front page news coast to coast now days, but back then it was just another day. Anytime one of us was within striking distance we got hit automatically. That was for what we didn’t get hit for, or what they didn’t catch us for, or just for general principle. If either of them moved, we flinched, if we flinched we got nailed, if we cried, we got nailed worse so we could have a reason to cry.

Doing the dishes after dinner. After all the washing, then drying, and then putting away, mom would inspect. When she'd find something out a place, like a water spot on a dish, the beating would start. And for a couple hours it would go on pretty intense. Every single dish in the house would be pulled from its spot in the cupboard, smashed into me, and tossed into the center of the kitchen, where I would be beat some more before having to redo - wash, dry, and put away - every dish in the whole house. That was every single night of my life for like nine years.

My brother and sister and I were beat almost every single minute of every single day. We three all have a really unique bond. It’s a trauma thing. Yeah, we were all wrecks. Life for all of us has been difficult.

I became a real problem child. They couldn’t control me. Nothing worked. No threat or punishment was of any consequence to me. I'd already had the worse that could be done. Every single day was garbage. Every bad thing that ever happened, I looked back on my mom and my childhood and hated. Hated with a death hate. I couldn’t get along with anyone, so I got tired of trying. I made the word "Hate" my theme, and song. A bitter melody that haunts my memory still. I have since forgiven; I wish I could just forget. I hated God so bad it was ridiculous. I hated life just as bad. There was no amount of care I could have for anyone other than my brother and sister.

Twenty foster homes and thirteen institutions. To get out of the orphanages and all I finally promised to join the U.S. Army. So they let me out, and I ran like hell. My real father lived in Arizona with his wife and her kids. That didn’t work out too well for me so I became a "Rainbow". Just a pothead hippie really. Only thing I cared about was weed and sex. Ate out of dumpsters when the panhandling got hard, or if I was just lazy. Lived on the street. There was a gal who fancied herself a witch in L.A. So if I was into trying the witchin or "wiccin" way, I could have my way with a wiccin babe. She had an old hotel for a home, so I didn’t have to sleep in the forest between the highways or under peoples houses and porches. Learning about Wicca or witchcraft was just a game for me. She always said the real power was in the heavy black stuff, but that’s dangerous and you’ll lose your soul, your sanity, yadda yadda. So there wasn’t any power in what we were doing anyway, big deal. It was just a game I liked to pl

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